deviantART should probably give groups forums. That's a huge oversight. I can't believe they forgot about it. Anyway, I wrote this as a comment a week or two ago, but the whole thing got eaten and I was too frustrated to rewrite it.

Warning: In this journal, I talk about my dumb radio show as if it is a thing that matters. Please don't read this.

It's November, and no one will let me forget that Christmas is coming up and maybe I should do that radio show that I usually do. I still don't know what my plans are. Maybe you guys can help me out!

Let me start by saying that Holiday48 has always wound up being fun for me. We've done it six times by now, and there are some shows that have been more stressful than others, but I always end up enjoying myself, even if not for the whole show.

I'd originally planned to retire Holiday48 in 2008. That show was huge, and we pulled out all the stops: I was using all my free time from November on working in the high school computer lab on the site, I wrote a whole bunch of music, and we did 100 hours of show. It was a TON of work, but it was fantastic, and I loved every minute of it! At the end of the show, I revealed that H48 was done, because I didn't think I could ever top that.

2009 ended up being a good year for Rofltime Radio, though. Once I figured out how to get people on Skype to contribute to it, Rofltime became a collaborative thing, and I was really happy with the vast majority of shows I did! I still didn't have any plans to do H48 until October or so, when Chet approached me and we made a deal - if he does a Christmas album, I'd do Holiday48.

Well, he didn't really do a Christmas album, and I didn't really do Holiday48. I was sick and tired and sad for the duration of the show, and I think it both started late and ended early. We did a bunch of Rofltime-like skits, some of which turned out pretty good, but it was not one of the great #cl radio successes.

2010 hasn't been great for radio either. I was going to do a brief winter run of Rofltime, but that never materialized and I became more frustrated. There were only five or six Rofltimes this year, and only two or so were worth listening to. I got burned out. Up All Night was great, though, and I think it might have been because it wasn't all me.

So there's one problem. I think I might've sort of built up and claimed #cl radio as a thing that I do, and sort of pull other people in as I need them - which I feel is the way I do a lot of "creative" things on the internet (like yelling at people to record instruments, or soliciting for jokes only when I need them). I'm really sorry about this! This seems terrible and standoffish and I hope you guys weren't offended by this. I'm going to try to be more open to true collaboration in the future.

Anyway, some of you guys might know that I am the king of my school's radio station, which is sort of nice! Last year, I worked as an intern-turned-guywhodoeseverythingfornomoney, and it was okay. This year, I get paid (not much), but I spent the first seven weeks of school working at the station ALL THE TIME, and I just sort of stopped caring about it. We're finally on the air (like, two week past midterms), and it's just not the great celebration I was expecting it to be - but I guess there's kind of a lot of things going on for me right now. I co-opted some shows, and it wasn't great.

That's another reason I'm hesitant to do Holiday48 this year. I feel like it's just going to be me trudging my way through two days of Christmas music. Maybe I should do some warm-up shows or something.

But okay, here's a different paragraph focusing on the amount of work: I don't think there will have to be a lot going on. We don't need contests or anything, #cl has long since needed to pretend we're interested in being a club (or even interested in being on dA)... we definitely don't need a crazy super website like the one in 2008, and I could probably throw something together. I don't think it needs to be longer than 48 hours, and we don't really need to worry about getting a bunch of new music. There is one practical caveat in the server - Andy's not sure when he's disarming Nebulon. He said after the new year, but then rescinded that when he looked at the billing cycle. So we might not even have a home for the show unless he decides to pay another $20 just for us (which we/I could certainly reimburse him for).

But I don't think I want it to be all a j2 show anymore. Up All Night was incredible, and I think we could do something like that successfully. You guys should host some segments of the show. I could definitely run most of the show (especially the shuffle set-and-forget freeplay hours), and I could host some things as I have in the past. Maybe I can upload a big list of all the songs and you can help me come up with themes?

I don't know! I haven't really done anything this collaborative before with you guys, which is sort of a weird revelation. I don't know how much control you want, because it seems whenever I try to do something like this, there's no interest at all (or implied interest and then everyone, usually including me, forgets about the whole ordeal).

And there's another problem: Holiday48 is like, the most successful thing I've ever done with you guys. That's partly why I did it last year, kind of out of obligation - if I don't do Holiday48, why am I still in #cl? So maybe I need to get over that too.

All right, I don't really know how to conclude this, but I guess I can say this: I would be willing to do some semblance of a holiday radio show. Should I? Do you guys want to help? Would it be cool if I skipped out on it? Write words below.